We have a sacred fly in our house. For two weeks now, all four of us have made it our mission to kill that thing. I know I have hit him with the swatter twice and my husband has made contact at least once, and yet it lives. Not only does it live, but it divebombs us at the most inopportune times.
As I have been trying to end our fly problem this week, it dawned on me that I literally have a “fly on the wall” at my house. There is always this big-eyed, winged creature taking in my every move. And if that fly could talk, oh the things it would say.
How many times have I lost my cool with my kids or muttered angrily under my breath after a conversation with my husband? Or what about the things I fuss about when no one is around as I clean up behind my family? Or when I respond out of broken emotions instead of taking time to process and think through situations? And gracious, what about when I hang up from a frustrating phone call, that fly notices my body language, hears my words, and sees how I act.
The list could go on and on as I think about all the areas of my life that have been exposed to this little “fly on the wall”. The reality is, though, that all of us have “flies on the wall” in our lives. Husbands, wives, children, grandchildren, other family, friends, and even the random people at doctor’s offices and grocery stores. Someone is always there watching and listening to the way we live our lives.
So, as I consider this fly, I ask myself how I’m doing. Am I living the same when everyone is looking and when I think no one is looking? Am I guarding my mouth and thinking before I speak? Am I setting an example for all the “flies” in my life or am I creating stumbling blocks for their journeys?
I don’t know about you, but I have a lot of work to do. Who would have thought that an annoying, little fly would make me stop and examine my heart so profoundly. What about you? How are you influencing the “flies on the wall” in your life?