I found myself with extra time today that I hadn’t anticipated, so I sat down to write. None of the directions I’ve been working on lately seemed to fit. I decided to go back to some stuff I began several years ago that, at the time, I had no idea how to finish. I read the first lines and tears welled up in my eyes. I immediately knew what I needed to write. Not only did I know how to sum it up, but I’m in a totally different place than I was four years ago and was able to finish it with a new take on life.
I get in a hurry sometimes. I don’t understand why God would have me leave something unfinished. I see little snippets of this big picture He’s laying out before me but I can’t tell how all of the pieces are going to come together. Life is so often filled with seasons of waiting accompanied by seasons of blind obedience. I want to shake my fist and question; I want God to part the waters and make it happen now! For me being content while waiting is the biggest challenge. Webster defines content as: pleased and satisfied; not needing more. I always want more: an explanation, a direction, a meaning, a purpose. I want God to show me the in and outs. I am still trying to learn to just trust His leadership and not question His motives. His motives are pure and good. I just need to remember that.
Through this simple little example today, I can see that I need to trust that God knows what He is doing. From the smallest little details to the biggest life-altering events, God’s timing is always better than our own.